My little darling knows what she wants and knows exactly how to get when she wants it. However, being at the hospital still she is not able to get what she wants when she wants and that makes her sooo very angry. I need to get a picture of her throwing a fit so all these "Little Angel" pictures don't mislead you! :) She is doing well. She is off her fentanyl- again, and doing better without than she did the first two times. She is a little cranky for sure, but I'm assuming the drs are confident because they took her PICC line out today!!! YIKES!! She is line free- all except her monitor lines- heart rate and respiratory rate- She is eating her 60 cc TODAY- who knows what she'll do tomorrow, but to me she seems hungry still after eating the 60- maybe they will up her seeing how they say she needs to be eating 90 cc! (3oz)
Yesterday was a very frustrating day for me- it was frustrating bc Kayla was having a bad eating day, and she was sleeping a lot- made me worry! But then I felt guilty for feeling frustrated because I am so blessed... and I just couldn't stop crying bc of the frustration I felt and bc of the guilt I felt for being so frustrated- it was a never ending cycle! So I left Kayla at 3 yesterday and drove home for the night. It was nice- my husband and some wine calmed me down quite a bit. But before I left- I was talking to some mom's at the hospital - one being Charlie's mom- and I wanted to thank them for listening to me whine and cry about my frustration and for not judging me for feeling that way.